I tio rejected liao... feel fucking bad... but if tats wad she wish, i respect her... i dun want her to be unhappy.... maybe my brothers will help me move forward... sorry that i misunderstood ur feelings... sorry that i loved you... now tat she made it clear tat its impossible... i shall concentrate on other things... 2moro gonna go gym and keep doing until i drop dead... the mental pain will be nothing compared to the lactic acid accumulated in my cells... the flame in my heart is now rekindled and expected to burn wilder than ever... i will give in my all to move to the top... Years ago, i was left behind by her but now i am making the choice to leave her behind and move into solitary... i feel the blood in my vein burn, feel my heart collapsing and my body going into a state of cramp... It hurts... i dun wanna love anymore... Yet, the me is unable to show any weakness to my friends, family... i shall suffer in my dream...