I was drunk today... there was something pressing on my heart today, so heavy... u said u had someone u admired, sorry... why did u have to be sorry? i am juz nothing to u... ur sorry is a torture to me... when u say that, wad i thought was not about myself, but how to make u dun mind me, or maybe i was thinking too much in the first place.... thinking back, i am juz a stranger passing into ur life... i mocked at myself... is god playing with me?? alcohol, so bitter yet something so dearing when u are down... it was hard... i went home and gulped down water, trying to numb myself... but i thank you, for dashing my hope and hurting me now... i wanna noe wad i had mean to u in the past... how can school get so dreadful to me?? i hope u never see the misery behind those hypocritical smiling faces and u enjoy ur happiness... perhaps, for me, happiness was not to be...